Annie Mae NYC

June 1, 2003

Three years ago this morning a dear friend of mine, Kyle Guyer passed away. I've struggled with what to post today in honor of him. He was and continues to be a tremendous influence on my life. Ever since the day I met him (June 17, 2002) he has been a source of encouragement and strength for me. He was the person I turned to when my Kitties was hit and killed by a car, when I ended a two-year relationship with Zac, and when I got homesick in NYC. He never let me doubt myself, and I know if he was around today he'd be as proud of me as my family is.

In one of our (many) IM conversations, we talked about our favorite song of all time. His was Too Close To See by Strung Out. A few days before he passed, I text'd him in a moment of weakness and confessed I wasn't sure if I'd made the right decision to move to New York. He simply text'd me back, "Don't stare to hard, just take a look around..." the last line from that song. On days like today, "Kyle Days", I find much comfort in that song.

So, here's to you Mr. D. Your boys are having a BBQ, Heath and I are havin Greyhounds, and we're all celebrating you, kiddo.



Too Close To See lyrics
A cup of two day old coffee
you're feeling like yourself again
you're still on your own
you've survived another night
in this dingy room with the same four walls
lookin' in the mirror's gettin' easier these days
that old friend anger is losing its hold on you
and it's good to see you're still standing strong
not too long ago you were tearing at a world
that would never let you in
strung out, outcast turned away
you kept your face to the ground
and fought the world with your silence
and so the seasons change
and the people change
and the good times come
and the good times go
found yourself in a winless race
fighting for a cause you never believed
its easy to regret not so easy to forget
all the stupid things that used to hold you down
you gotta break that chain and move on
cuz I know I've seen it in your eyes before
to surrender now to throw it all away
is to sacrifice but you can't repay
in a world that don't owe you shit
you gotta think for yourself
and fight every bit of that piece of mind
that keeps you going on
gets you outta bed and out that door
step back take a look around and soon
you'll find there's something more
that'll come your way
with a little patience
it will all work out for you in the end
this is my song to a friend that never needed anyone until now
some times you get too close to see
a different side of what life could be
and if you stare too long
it all becomes a blur and its easy to forget
just who we are
don't stare to hard, just take a look around...

posted by Annie Mae @ 12:47 PM